breaking FREE

EXCITED much?

noooooooooooooooo

its the other way around..

[but not HESITANT though]

oh well it was wednesday when we met up with him..like we owe him a lot..

well as planned..im not VISITING him..i will just accompany my sis ^^

that's for sure..

[notice the reluctance?more of that coming...]

i never planned to be good and i never planned to be bad as well

i did'nt even have a plan at all

not even acting NATURAL

i just went there without anything on my mind.. and as usual i was late..way more than 30 mins late..and just minutes after i arrived he's there.. wearing he's same old look.. same old smile.. but there's something more than that.. arising is the same old TENSION between US..

DEFENSIVE

yes i am..

trying to play it safe.. AGAIN.

and as usual, NO signs of tension or whatever on him its just plain.ordinary.simple

and

COMFORTABLE

i managed to cling with the atmosphere

to finally

BREAK FREE

<end of RELUCTANCE>

dinner was dope!i didn't imagine ganun sya kababaw!hahaha

im not even on my peak of joking around..

i guess that was the best part of me being ME.

no pretensions and lies

after all

no PLAYING SAFE

and its as if he knows me a lot

how fast[??] i eat.. and how matakaw i am..

and yes

KILIG

is there

but as much as that

i felt the  

relaxed.cool yet serious.comfortable

atmosphere

no other feelings could surpass that

not even

KILIG

[coz that time im not entertaining it, i want to keep it cool,keep it
JUST FRIENDS ^^]

it was a fun night!

didn't realize that it would end up like that..
that all the eye catching moments[wooohoo!!haha! na nakakatunaw @,@]

came soooooo natural

that it was merely

unnoticeable

we walked(a lot),talked,joked around..

its like it's the

START OF SOMETHING NEW

[at least]

much love,

joan lorraine =]